Girl talk

01.14.08

Today I'm supposed to understand that I have several relationships going on with several people and these relationship are individual from the other. Therefore, I need to treat them all differently. Or, so says my horoscope.

Dear Diary,
I've been lost and Seattle found me. I love that city and I need to go home. I just wrote out all the people who have been on my mind lately, and what type of relationship I have with them, if I see it as positive or not.

Most aren't so postive.

I shouldn't be so reluctant to write in here. I shouldn't keep deleting everything I write. Since when did I start caring? This isn't right. This isn't Nelapsi. She tends to want to hurt some people, where did that spark go? Ugh.

Cheddar is being sweet and making it hard to get off the couch. I don't want to go to work. I only work two days. I'm going to start doing more over time so I can save money. We're moving to Seattle by the end of May.

Maybe I am escaping my horoscope. Maybe I am running towards someone who I know is untouchable. Maybe I have silly ideas of how my life is supposed to end up. But I can't accept that Idaho is my final destination and I refuse to think that Prince Charming is under my nose. The best way to fall in love is when you're having an adventure.

I'm in love with Seattle and I'm soon to be home.

He sang me this song out side Club Trinity. Of all the men in Seattle, I fall for the good 'ol country boy.

Love me regardless

Nelapsi

...

How 'bout them cowgirls
Boys ain't they somthin'
Sure are some proud girls
And you can't tell them nothin'
And I tell you right now girls
May just be seven wonders of this big, old round world
But how 'bout them cowgirls

She's a ridin' colts in Steamboat Springs
Bailing hay outside Abilene
She's trying hard
To fit in some city
But her home is 'neath that big, blue sky
And the Northern Plains and those other wide open spaces ...

Boy, she don't need you and she don't need me
She can do just fine on her own two feet
But she wants a man who wants her to be herself
And she'll never change, don't know how to hide
Her stubborn will or her fightin' side
But you treat her right and she'll love you like no on else ...

yesterdays and tomorrows