Forget yesterday...

05.15.08

Seattle would have set me free. Some how, I always manage to get myself in a situation just as something good is trying to push through. I know this is the wrong impression to imprint into the universe. Forgive me, I just need to get this out. Forgive me, I could really use an Abandon. Help me, I could really use a rope out of this mess I jumped into. There is always a word or more stamped on my forehead and now I'm thinking it says FUCK ME. Why do I always skip the friendship part of a relationship and dive right into the sack? I am too easily controlled. It's bizzare to admit, I fancy myself strong and in control. I'm not. There is something wonderful pushing his way into my life. Kristy spotted him pushing the hair out of my face when we were talking. I missed it. I seem to miss these things. Seattle wasn't setting me free, it was setting me away. It was what made prior actions safe. It was my big city where no one would care. My beloved Boise... I can't escape you, can I?

Nelapsi

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